Once I read CoC and some other books it went away. I am still dealing with some anger but overall I don't have those feelings of being worthless. I could see where being a JW fed into those feelings. The best thing you can do for yourself is to read and research, find some good self help books after deprograming yourself. It has also helped me to participate on sites like this because reading other life stories really does help, you will find out you are not alone and most on here have been through the same thing.
Aunt Fancy
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After leaving did the feeling go away?
by committeechairman inthe feeling that you're never good enough.
the feeling that you're wicked and evil.. .
because i'd give anything not to feel this way.
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VERY CONFIDENTIAL LETTER - Child abuse 10/01/2012
by WatchTower87 inconfidential letter child abuse http://adf.ly/auxbu.
to all bodies of elders.
the congregation secretary should arrange for this letter to be retained in the congregation permanent file of policy letters.
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The Rants of a Dumbass Elder Still Serving
by TTATTelder inok in the effort of full disclosure, i have had a couple of drinks and recently experienced a circuit assembly and a bad experience with a co.. i don't know where to effing begin.
first of all the circuit assembly was a joke.
half the assembly was about pioneering and selling your soul to be a no-pay salesman for the borg.
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Aunt Fancy
I don't know how you can do it, I think I would come home and drink too and I rarely drink. I would have such a hard time listening to all of the crap. It had been 23 months that we faded and I remember the last year we were in I would leave the KH so agitated and then the panic attacks started. I get upset reading about their nonscense so I can't imagine actually being there, I would be afraid I would say something out loud. Lol!
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How many have stopped attending at YOUR Kingdumb Hell?
by hamsterbait inon a recent thread about the fleecing of the sheeples, one poster said their congo was down to 85 publishers from 102.. the last hall i attended had 80-odd publishers 20 years ago, now only 30.. how much of a decline at your kh?.
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We live in an area that had huge growth for the past 20 years but it was mostly from current JW's moving out of NYC, NJ, Philladelphia and other areas. The last few years there has been no new congregations formed nor KH's built. I also noticed a large drop in baptisms and meeting attendance has gone way down. I haven't been to a meeting in almost 2 years.
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Anyone recall a time when your congregation came to the aid of a Brother or sister in need??
by jam ini'm not talking about a individual, but a congregation as a whole.. i'm talking about a brother or sister that really hit hard times.. have there ever been an occasion where the brothers (elders).
decided to dip into the kh funds and help one in need????.
example, brother loose his job, get evicted, family of four or.
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Aunt Fancy
I was in for 30 years, lived in two different states and was in 9 different congregations (because they were areas of the country where there was a lot of growth but not from newley interested ones but JW's who moved into the area) and I never saw one case where the congregation helped someone in need. There was one time where someone was sick or died and they had the sisters cook a meal but that was the extent of it.
It is really pathetic when you think about it and so unloving.
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Get well Grace (Mouthy)
by label licker ina loud get well grace from all of us to you.
everyone, grace has been in and out of the hospital and i'm sure she would love to read your get wells.
we miss you grace:) wish i could post pictures.
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Aunt Fancy
Get well Granny Grace, we all miss you! Sending a big hug!
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The resolution was actually passed!
by stillin inwho would have thought that enough people would raise their hands when the resolution was put before the congregation tonight?
based on the pledges that the publishers put on those little pieces of paper, the congregation is promising the wts that they will send $1,000/month to support the society's building funds.. there is a traditional monthly shortfall of about $100 with the basic monthly bills usually around $1,000.
i didn't raise my hand.
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Aunt Fancy
During the 30 years I was in there was only one person who voted against a resolution. It didn't change a thing and I doubt that most people would vote against something the elders made.
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...The WBT$ Theft of Kingdom Hall Bank Accounts and JW Elders...
by OUTLAW in.. the new wbt$ donation arrangement/ jw kingdom hall bank account theft... is a very hot topic right now... the wbt$ is literally going to clean out kingdom hall bank accounts,filled with donations from jws... that theft is going to happen world wide..the wbt$ is going to steal from 7 million plus jw`s... .. we have jw elders here on jwn,that know whats going on... they "serve" in kingdom halls,they are "supposed" to be looking after the welfare of the average jw... they know there is a 4 page letter,only one page will be read to the congregation..the rest will be kept secret... they know the wbt$ is about to steal jw donations..on a world wide scale!!!...
.. i would like to know what you active jw elders are going to do about this??!!...
are you going to let "your" congregation know about the other 3 secret pages?...
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Aunt Fancy
When voting on this new arrangement 99.99% of the JW's will vote for whatever they are asked. During the 30 years I was in I saw only one person vote against a resolution. They are trained to do whatever the elders and GB tell them to.
Years ago my husband stopped donating money and giving free materials and labor to the building projects. I didn't understand what he knew but he would only throw in a little money for books and magazines and then I would write a check for the DC, CA and SD. It makes me sick the amount of money we gave over that period.
The whole WT$ is just one big criminal organization. With the child abuse, the DFing and shunning of perople, the taking of so much money and then they live high on the hog and all of the false teachings. They are a cult and they just get worse by the day.
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Scared I'll Never be Happy Again
by Stumbeline inso it's' been 8 months since i was disfellowshiped.
i moved out of my mothers house accross the country to room with a friend.
things have been going ok, it's just strange to be so far away from everything that felt familiar, even the meetings.
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Aunt Fancy
Stumbleline, you are feeling what many of us have felt. You are still newly out so give yourself some time to heal. Try to research and read books written about ex-JW's, Steven Hassen - cult recovery, self help books and research the history of religion because it will help you heal. I agree with the others who suggested you find a good therapist that understands being in a cult because it help will help change your life.
I don't know how you can go back and live a lie because I think it will be so harmful to your mental health. Get involved with things you enjoy and find some hobbies that involves meeting others or volunteer. Once you start to make new friends your life will change.
You are still young and you have a great future ahead of you, just take advantage of the opportunities out there. Many ex-JW's go wild when they leave but don't feel you have to try everything just to fit in.
Hang in there, it is a roller coaster ride and you will have your down moments but pick yourself up and keep moving forward. We are here whenever you need to talk.
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Convicted paedophile allowed to grill his victims at Jehovah's Witness meeting
by Sapphy inhttp://www.manchestereveningnews.co.uk/news/greater-manchester-news/convicted-paedophile-jonathan-rose-grilled-7151197.
oh my goodness, i'm so angry i can't even speak!
"women who complained that former jehovahs witness elder jonathan rose, 40, had molested them as children relived their nightmares in front of him after he was released from jail".
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Aunt Fancy
This is beyond disgusting! Eight ignorant elders sat there and questioned them instead of taking the court records and keeping this creep out of the KH And protecting the children. How do these men sleep at night knowing what they did to these girls. When you think you have heard it all something like this comes up and there is no doubt that it is a wicked cult. Jehovah's Witnesses wake up!!